Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Well, you shouldn’t beat yourself up over that, I’m pretty sure the majority of guys has those thoughts. I’d say it’s only a problem if they become rather obsessive. ;)
It also just sounds like there’s a simple underlying ‘problem’ - neediness, loneliness, whichever it is. Don’t just ‘want a girlfriend’ because you will end up settling for someone that you might not even connect to that well. Most relationships aren’t as magical as they are hyped up to be, and the ones that are - well, they’re not the ones that you get by settling for less.